when wil we learn

1. to truly be happy with who we are
to not be bothered whether others think us as HL or not. my definition of confidence has changed, it is not simply an attitude, it is a mindset. we can appear confident, but within 5 minutes of interaction, many who "appear" confident wil come across as lacking a certain X-factor. unsure of oneself mayb, not sure if we r leaving a good enough impression.

i have always been told i m too frank, too direct, offensive even... and over the years, i think this has made me a more timid person, not willing to speak my mind - afraid of offending someone. but why? why have we sacrificed our freedom to b ourselves just to please other, when actually others dun reali give a heck whether we r doing well or not? at the end of the day, why do i even bother whether they r happy with me or not? why do we fear criticisms n gossip when the criticisers n gossippers r but passers-by in our lives?

2. to fight for what we want
is this a singaporean syndrome - daydreaming about what we want, then getting hindered by circumstances around us? i want to get a degree, but i got no time n no money. i want to join a gym, but i cant make the time commitment. i want to look for a new job, but will the next job reali b better? why do we put obstacles to hinder ourselves even before we have actually tried to achieve anything?

why do we enjoy being wetblankets to ourselves, and worse, others? why do we kill our dreams? it is so sad, to see our potential, to feel that passion in our blood - yet we do not pursue that dream - becos "no money, no time, family commitment, too old, too young, mayb in a few years"...